New Years Resolution

Most people make a resolution for the new year. I am making mine for the last two months of this year so that I will get there by New yrs. Day. :) My goal is to hit my 10% by January 1st. I only have four lbs. to go. Some would say four lbs. in two months is nothing. Most of the yr. I would have to agree. However, it is one week away from Thanksgiving and only a month away from Christmas. So many temptations lay in my way. But I am going to do it!!! I can not and will not fail!! I have got this. So, here I go!

Something New

Several people have mentioned me using more of my allowance pts. I was afraid that I was too close to my goal to use many. However, after a few comments from the Hubby this week I decided to use some. I stayed as close to my DP as possible but went over a few everyday. I also ate breakfast and worked out six days straight. I was so nervous for my meeting this morning I just knew that because I had went over my DP's that I had gained. I got on the scale and WOW.... I lost 2.2 lbs this week. I was sooo happy. Here is to another great week in WW land. :)

Single Digit

Whhooohooo I am now a single digit chick. I went shopping for jeans since my last post. I was in a sz. 10 and they were always slipping down. So I went shopping and decided to try a sz. 8. They fit. I was a little nervous that the tens were slipping due to being wore out. But when I tried on the eights they fit like a glove. I haven't wore a single digit pair of jeans in almost 5 yrs. I can't tell you how great it feels to finally get here. My confidence is so much higher. I still have over 10 lbs. to loose to reach my overall goal but with my new jeans I know that I am one step closer to getting there. :)

Decisions, Decisions?!

What an awesome weekend. Saturday we went to the Tri-State Fair parade and then that evening we went to the fair. It was a lot of fun. This being the first yr. my kids rode any of the rides. I know your wondering if I ate there. Yes I did!! I had a corndog and a coke for dinner. Then later that night I had a deep fried S’more. Did I feel guilty? Not at all. I had worked out five days in a row before the fair and ate clean every single day. We were at the fair for almost five hrs. so I got in plenty of walking. Sunday I didn’t do a workout but I did stay within my DPPT. Then today I got up and did all three miles on my 3 mile DVD. I have planned out my pts. For the day and am feeling great.

I have also been asked to become a fitness coach for Beachbody. I have spent the last day and a half researching every aspect and trying to decide if I should try it. I just can’t make up my mind. I think it would be a good investment and would help motivate me to keep up with my fitness. However, I don’t know if I can put in the $$. It isn’t a lot to become a coach but we are already pretty tight. I will just have to give it some thought. Here is to another wonderful Weight Watchers week. Go me!!

Can I get a Whoop Whoop!!!

I am super stoked today. For the last almost 2 yrs. I have been trying to loose weight. The lowest I was able to get to was in the low 150 range. I got so discouraged that I thought maybe that is where I was just suppose to be, and that my goal of 135 wasn’t right for my body. Then I gained 10 lbs. back and was really depressed. A few months ago my mom suggested that I join WW. So I did. I love it, however, after the new wore off I wasn’t as committed to my points and exercise. Then I hit the low 150’s and wasn’t going anywhere. I was beginning to get very discouraged again. Last week I recommitted to the plan. I stayed as close to my daily target as possible and started exercising a little every single day. Today I went and weighed in. 148.4 - WHOOOHOOO!!! I have not weighed this small amount in five years. In just this one week I lost 2.2 lbs. I am floating on cloud nine. I am so happy in fact that I almost squealed in the parking lot when I left the building. Next week I will have been 16 weeks in a row and will receive my first charm. Lots of wonderful things ahead for me in this journey. Not only that but I am now ONLY 13 lbs. away from my overall goal. :) Heck yeah!!

New Goal

Today I have really been on top of my game. I got up had breakfast and then jumped right into my devotional. As soon as I was finished I grabbed my sneakers and put them on. I knew that if I waited I wouldn’t workout. I got the kids dressed and then hit the elliptical. I got in 2.75 miles and was sweating like a dog. As for my food intake I am going to end the day within my point range. I hope by Friday’s weigh in I see some progress from this week. I am setting a goal to get to the 140’s by the end of Sept. I am very close but keep yo-yoing back and forth at the low 150’s. I hope that since I gave myself a couple of weeks that I will get over this hump and be in a range that I have not seen in 6 yrs. Here is to a new goal and another new outlook on my journey.

Re-committing Myself

I have really lost my mojo when it comes to exercise. It takes everything I have inside to get up and do anything. I have recently started following a few pgs. On fb and that seems to be helping. I am still loving WW however, I have been using too many pts. And the weight loss has slowed down quite a bit. I have got to get back on track. I am doing a little better this week. I am trying to focus on each meal and on my power foods so that I am not hungry and so that I am not getting cravings. I will def. have to learn how to use my weekly allowance pts. It all just takes time. This morning I did get in a great workout on the elliptical. I did 5 min. at a resistance of 4 and then 5 min. at a resistance of 5. I did that for 15 min. and had a great sweat going on. I am also wearing my pedometer so that I can get in my 10,000 steps today. Haven’t done that in a long time. I will get to my goal. I am not giving up!!

I'm Here

I am still here. I have been feeling bad this week and it just kept getting worst. So this morning the Hubby went into work late and I went to Urgent Care. I am not dying, thank God, I just have an upper respiratory infection. But I got some antibiotics so hopefully in a few days I will be as good as new. Yesterday I mopped my kitchen and by the time I finished my throat and chest burned so bad that I knew cardio was out of the question. I did lift a few weights but that was it. Today I doubt I do anything but rest. As for my appetite it is way down. I wish I had an appetite like this everyday, but then I wouldn’t be overweight would I? Oh well I will jump back on the healthy bandwagon when I can breath and not cough up a lung every few minutes.

I Did It!!

I woke up this morning and felt absolutely awful. My entire body ached and I was still coughing. My throat was raw. I lay there thinking about laying in bed until tomorrow. However, with a three year old and a fifteen month old I knew that wasn’t going to happen. So I dragged myself out of bed. I decided I would eat breakfast and then stay in my p.j.s all day. But this morning as I sat here I started reading blogs and got to thinking about yesterday. I felt bad yesterday but was so excited to give my elliptical another shot. After spending twenty minutes on it I felt better. After a little self motivation I went back to my room and jumped on. Twenty minutes later I was sweating and feeling proud. I did it, I got on sick and cranky and I did it!! I then decided to do some ST with my weights for my arms. Results are I feel better. I am still coughing but I have energy, I am not sitting here feeling sorry for myself, and I am hoping that maybe I sweated a little bit of this crud out of my body. Yeah, go me!! Looking forward to tomorrow’s cycle and weights.

Stride cycle

For a few days now I have been thinking about using some of our tax return for an elliptical. I have wanted a treadmill for about four years now but our house just doesn’t have room. So I started looking at ellipticals on-line. I found one at Academy that sounded really cool, and it was the price I was wanting to pay. However, when I got there they were sold out. I noticed they had one that was fifty dollars cheaper and could also be used like a stationary bike. I tried it out and loved it. I have never used one before so yesterday I took it pretty easy. I alternated between the elliptical/bike for twenty minutes at a resistance of one. I know, your thinking how lame. Like I said it is new to me and I am not in shape at all. Today I woke up feeling yucky but was dying to use my new toy. So I set the resistance for two and alternated every five minutes between the elliptical and bike for twenty minutes. I kept my speed over 10mph and manage to get in 4.46 miles. I was happy with my first official workout and hope that I shed some major pounds with my new workout equipment. :)

Sick Saturday

Being an active and fit Mommy was a total bust this weekend. My precious little boy had a stomach virus. So I spent all day Sat. cleaning up messes, doing a billion loads of laundry, and loving on and comforting a very miserable little guy. He is feeling much better today so after finishing laundry and going grocery shopping I am going to try and get in some kind of workout. I have a dry scratchy throat and he still isn’t at his best though. So if I don’t get one in I am not too worried about it. I know tomorrow will be a new day and I will def. get in a great workout then. My focus today will be not eating like a pig and making sure my little prince is taken care of. :)

Well here we go. The weekend is upon us and when my husband is home my bad habits are always there. From the time we dated and all of our married life we have always enjoyed eating out. We like fast food, restaurants, and everything in between. So today I woke up with a strong desire for Starbucks. Yeah I know ridiculous. The smallest white chocolate mocha, well over 300 calories. My plan was to go get the Hubby and babies donuts and I was going to eat oatmeal. I went and got the Hubby his usual cinnamon roll and the kids their donut holes. Then I headed to Starbucks for the coffee. I got the smallest mocha and came home. So far so good. That is when it went downhill. I couldn’t do it. I turned down the oatmeal and ate four donut holes. :P Total calories for breakfast 570. So not worth it. Now I am going to get in a killer cardio and will hopefully make better choices the rest of the day. :) Hope everyone has a super Saturday!!

Weekly Weigh-in

After talking to my cousin about the scale being stuck she suggested more cardio. So this week I have been sweating like crazy between my ST and cardio workouts. I just knew that today for weigh in I would have a loss. However, I was up this with a 0.4 lbs. I am totally ok with that though. Yesterday my college roommate was in town so we met up at Chilli’s for lunch. Then my grandma called and said one of my uncles was in town. There was NO way I was going to pass up Grandma’s home cooking. She lives an hour away so by the time I got home last night it was late. Needless to say I didn’t workout yesterday. I am thinking as small of a gain as it is that it was probably the the cinnamon roll or the brownie I had last night. Definetly going to get in a workout today and make healthy food choices this week.

Yesterday I was feeling really BLAH!! I didn’t sleep well the night before and my energy level was so low. However, it was absolutely gorgeous outside so I decided to take advantage of the weather. I dug the double stroller out of the closet and loaded the babies up. I put on my ankle weights and cranked up my MP3 player. I walked a few blocks and then went a few more. It felt great but I started getting thirsty so I headed back to the house. By the time I got back I checked my pedometer and I had walked 2 miles. Not a lot but with the stroller and 2.5 lb. weights on each leg it was plenty for me. It def. perked me up to get outside and get moving. By five o’ clock my leg muscles had a little bit of soreness so I think I did ok for the day. I am hoping today is as beautiful as yesterday so that the kids and I can hit the pavement again.

Look Both Ways

I have been trying to find fellow bloggers to follow. I have found a few that are really great. One of them is The Thin Within. Yesterday she said something in her blog that really hit home for me. She said, “that when you diet you really have to remember to look both ways. Don’t just look forward at how far you have to go but to also look back and think about how far you have come.” I got really comfortable at the progress I had made and realize that I have spent a lot of months looking back instead of looking forward. Instead of looking for new ideas and trying new things I kept looking at what I had done. I really think this is what has kept the scale in limbo. The scale stuck because I stuck. I have been eating the same things and doing the same workouts repeatedly. Today I am going to start focusing on looking forward. I am going to see what new foods I can find and what other act. I might like that I haven’t done in a while or maybe have never done. In my first post “The Cocoon” I said I wanted to find myself. I think trying new and diff. things will def. give me a better insight to finding out who I really am.

Wow am I feeling lazy today or what? It is a good lazy though. The kind of lazy where you know you will get up and get going before too long. Yesterday I jogged and did arm weights again. I am feeling a jog in my future for today. I know I will get some workout in today because my in-laws are headed this way and I may not get anything in tomorrow. There is NO way I am working out in front of them, lol. Tonight they are wanting to take us out to eat. I have done so well this week with my calories that I don’t want to screw up now. So my plan is to eat an early meal so that when we go out I will be to full to over indulge. I will have to let you know how that one works out. ;) Hope everyone has an awesome day!!

Starting to Sweat Again

Ok, so I was going to load the family up yesterday and head to the park for some family time and a walk. HAHA!! The wind was blowing 180mph and there were grassfires everywhere. So I said to myself, “Go with your other love and dance.” I grabbed my ankle weights, grabbed my wrist weights, and turned on the Wii. Thirty minutes later I still wasn’t feeling the groove. I felt like jogging. I have a REALLY bad knee but I do try and jog in place some around the house. So I cranked up my workout play list and jogged until I couldn’t jog anymore. Then I did a few exercises with my arm weights. I was sweating and happy.
I have also gotten really bad about having a coke and a 100 calorie snack every single afternoon. I bought some sugar-free gum at WM yesterday and as soon as snack time hit I grabbed a piece of gum. I am happy to report that I didn’t have a coke all day and I didn’t eat a single snack yesterday afternoon. Maybe after months and months of being at a plateau I am finally going to get back on track and loose this last twenty pounds.

Finding What I Love

Several months ago I hit a plateau with my weight loss. So I started looking at what I was doing. The verdict: I wasn’t mixing up my exercise. I found a game on the Wii that I LOVE. It’s called Just Dance 2. I love music and I love to dance. Because I was doing it every day it got a little dry and I wasn’t getting into like I used to. So for the last month or two I alternate between that and a walking DVD that my mom gave me. Yesterday I was down on myself and didn’t want to workout. Then my first and at the time only follower said something to me that was exactly what I needed to hear (Thank you Yo-Yo). “Find something you love and prioritize it.” When I was a teenager before my driving days I loved to walk. But NOT in front of the T.V. lol. So I got to thinking. “Nikki, get off your butt and go walk.” (I have a 15 month old and a three yr. old BUT I also have a double stroller.) “Get out there and start walking, and on the days you can’t (due to weather) dance and then dance some more. Duuhhhh! My husband is off work today so I decided that I am loading the family up and we are all going for a walk!

Why?

I don’t understand why I am so hard on myself? Some mornings I wake up and eat my breakfast, get up and get going. I get in a great workout. My blood is pumping and I am feeling great. Then there are days like today. I wake up and I have no motivation to get going. I spend hrs. trying to convince myself to get in a workout. Then I tell myself I can do it later when I feel more into it. I finally get around to getting in some kind of workout. Today I did some exercises using my ankle weights. So I SHOULD be proud. I did it!! I worked out even though I wasn’t in the mood. However, I am still in a slum. I think to myself, I could have done better. I could have went longer, I could have picked something more strenuous. I should have burned more calories. WHY?!! Why do I beat myself up? Why can’t I be pleased that I did anything at all? Why can’t I be glad that I am done for the day? Why can’t I say great job Nikki? If I could do that wouldn’t it make each day easier? I tell myself on good days that it is ok to have down days, that it is only human. But then on days like today I tear myself down. It is VERY frustrating. :S I keep thinking that one day my workouts will be routine just like getting up and brushing my teeth. However, a year and four months in I still struggle. Oh well I have to just keep chugging. I mean after all if I don’t my only other option is to give up and I am NOT a quitter.

The Cocoon

You are probably thinking, “Ok here is another girl who is overweight. She is trying to loose weight and is going to blog about being fat so that she can meet her goal.” Well a little over a yr. ago I did start working on loosing weight. However, today I am beginning more than just trying to hit my goal weight. I am going to find my TRUE self. I don’t even know if we ever really find out who we are, or if that is what life is always learning new things about ourselves. In my mind I see a butterfly. It is beautiful, elegant, graceful, and catches peoples eye. In the mirror I see a chunky lumpy cocoon that is hiding that butterfly. I want to look in the mirror and smile. At first it was all about my appearance and the size of clothes I wear. Now, it is still about loosing weight and looking good but more importantly it is about discovering myself and who I am.