Saturday, February 26, 2011
Why?
I don’t understand why I am so hard on myself? Some mornings I wake up and eat my breakfast, get up and get going. I get in a great workout. My blood is pumping and I am feeling great. Then there are days like today. I wake up and I have no motivation to get going. I spend hrs. trying to convince myself to get in a workout. Then I tell myself I can do it later when I feel more into it. I finally get around to getting in some kind of workout. Today I did some exercises using my ankle weights. So I SHOULD be proud. I did it!! I worked out even though I wasn’t in the mood. However, I am still in a slum. I think to myself, I could have done better. I could have went longer, I could have picked something more strenuous. I should have burned more calories. WHY?!! Why do I beat myself up? Why can’t I be pleased that I did anything at all? Why can’t I be glad that I am done for the day? Why can’t I say great job Nikki? If I could do that wouldn’t it make each day easier? I tell myself on good days that it is ok to have down days, that it is only human. But then on days like today I tear myself down. It is VERY frustrating. :S I keep thinking that one day my workouts will be routine just like getting up and brushing my teeth. However, a year and four months in I still struggle. Oh well I have to just keep chugging. I mean after all if I don’t my only other option is to give up and I am NOT a quitter.
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YAY! One of my favourite sayings: Run when you can, walk if you have to, crawl if you must, just never give up! Being a woman, and especially a mom, ups and downs are inevitable. Even if you're crawling, just be patient with yourself. One thing you can do is try different types of work-outs and at different times of the day. Personally I love running and swimming. I've been telling myself for a long time I will do a weekly swim work-out, but that hasn't happened yet, but someday. But this year I realised that although bootcamp was great for killing calories, I hated it. I was depressed, and frustrated, and eating the calories back on because I wasn't happy. My best exercise advice is this: Find an activity you LOVE be it dancing, swimming, running, weights, aerobics, yoga, WHATEVER YOU LOVE, and prioritise it. Because what's the point of doing something you hate for the rest of your life? Another advice is this: While the kids are young, I suppose the work-out time is limited. Perhaps for now you could put up with early morning work-outs because there is no choice, but later on, maybe a year or two, you will have more choice. I workout now (youngest is nearly 4) during the day. I'm so much happier. Just saying, if you can see the light at the end of the tunnel, the darkness isn't so bad to bear. GOOD LUCK!!! Thanks for your comment :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Annalisa for all your words of wisdom. I was a little self-conscious about starting this blog. Your comment is exactly what I am desp. needing. You will never know how much it means to me. Thanks for the encouragement. :)
ReplyDelete:) So happy to help.
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